Something happened very early this morning that was so special and so sacred that I almost didn't feel I could write about it. And at the same time for those same reasons I knew I had to. I've never been very good at keeping my journal, so I started this blog with that in mind. I want to remember every detail so that when I need some strength I can go back and read about it and rely on it. So with that said, I will do my best to retell it.
Somewhere around 5:30 am I was dreaming that something had happened that upset me terribly (don't remember what I was upset about but what upset me isn't important). I was crying about it while going somewhere in my car. I stopped in a deserted parking lot and sobbed. While I was crying over the steering wheel, suddenly I felt an arm around my shoulders and some kisses on my head. I was frightened because I knew I was alone in the car. And yet, I knew the feel of that arm, I knew the feel of those lips. I tried to see who was there but my teary eyes saw only darkness. I started frantically asking "Who's here? Who are you? I can't see you". The arm pulled me tighter, closer, a precious kiss was given on my forehead, then ever so quietly Charlie's voice said "It's okay. I can see you".
I wasn't asleep at this point, I wasn't dreaming. I was awake and my face really was wet with tears. For just a small moment the heavens parted and Charlie was with me. And he sees me.
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Perhaps he also knew about the other news you'd hear today-and it's effect....
Interestingly, I've been feeling like Charlie's close by too lately-thought it was part of the healing process, that came with tender memories from recent years-thoughts of your cruise, and though I'm glad for Tim and Lisa's marriage yet, sad when I remember Charlie shooting Tim and Lisa's reception July 1st 3 years ago, etc...or maybe just my imagination? Even shared a few jokes with him the past few days. Hold this memory close!
Love, Jeanette
Perhaps he also knew about the other news you'd hear today-and it's effect....
Interestingly, I've been feeling like Charlie's close by too lately-thought it was part of the healing process, that came with tender memories from recent years-thoughts of your cruise, and though I'm glad for Tim and Lisa's marriage yet, sad when I remember Charlie shooting Tim and Lisa's reception July 1st 3 years ago, etc...or maybe just my imagination? Even shared a few jokes with him the past few days. Hold this memory close!
Love, Jeanette
Oh wow how special. I'm so glad you wrote this down. Amazing - what a blessing. I'm so happy you had this experience.
What a precious experience. Thank you for sharing it. I'm sure it will bring peace to you in the future when you need it. ((hug))
Sally I know that had to be a hard thing for you to write but, thank you for sharing such a personal experience with us.
I did not know Charlie as well as some but I did love him and think of him often in my prayers.
That, too, made me cry. Thank you for sharing that with us. My thoughts are with you and Chris and her family today too. I pray for peace for your hearts. Love you.
Thanks to everyone for your comments - it was a very special moment, one that I'll always treasure.
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