Hard day

There hasn't been a day that I haven't yearned to have Charlie back.  It's an ache that stays deep within, never gone, but is made tolerable by the belief that we will be together again.  I know I am a strong person and I don't want pity.  I see others  that have it so much worse than me and I am grateful for the many blessings that I have been given.  But today was one of those days when that ache rises above all and all I can do is cry and plead for Charlie to come back.  Of course the holidays have something to do with it.  But mostly it's because I'm sick.  I miss having him take care of me.  I really want him to give me a blessing.  And a hug.